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A narcissist will always return to an ex-lover to ensure that his narcissistic supply still pines for him and that she never moves on from the pain he has caused her. Referred to as the hoover (or, as I like to call it, The Hoovering, because, to me, it smacks of a scary movie!), this return is very deliberate and typically won’t occur until the narcissist has been gone just slightly longer than the time before. By timing these reappearances perfectly, the narcissist conditions his victim to not only expect him to come back but also to expect him to come back at a much later date, thus giving him more play time in the interim. All of this is part of the narcissist’s control/validate tactic which, in turn, is all a part of the process of managing down our expectations of the relationship so that we expect less and less and he gets away with more. It’s such a subtle conditioning that victims often don’t even know it’s happening…like a horror show coming soon whether you like it or not.
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As you know, a hoover usually follows a silent treatment (which is really a break-up in disguise, by the way) and comes long after the victim has been completely devastated by the silence. The narcissist may hoover in several different ways and for various reasons, with each hoovering event staged according to that pathological relationship agenda that all narcissists live by.
For example, a narcissist may 1) come back full-on by simply showing up and expecting to pick up right where he left off without a single repercussion, OR 2) not quite ready to return but still wanting you to prepare for the possibility, he’ll begin hoovering with a sporadic text or an email or he’ll ring your phone (hanging up before you answer) from either his number or one he knows you’ll recognize and associate with him. With the second type of hoover, any attempts on your part to return the text, call, or email will likely go unanswered because the intention here is not to actually communicate with you but rather to warm you up to the situation…to get you feeling anxious, confused, and maybe even quietly excited about his possible return.
Whichever tactic he uses, the narcissist’s intention is to keep your mind spinning with “what-if’s” so that you never even get a chance to move on. Again, as part of his agenda, this manipulative behavior lays the groundwork for the next discard which, of course, will come faster (after his return) and with far more crippling intensity than all the discards before it. This agenda – which all victims of narcissist abuse are familiar with – is described in great detail in my book When Love Is a Lie. Nothing a narcissist ever does is random and that’s a fact.
For my narcissist ex, changing cell numbers before a return (and arming himself with a ridiculous excuse as to why he did it) became his preferred tactic for erasing his tracks. This tactic caused me a great deal of anxiety and sleepless nights and I even created a name it – The Cell Phone Game. It took many years to figure it out but I finally concluded that the timing of each number change and subsequent hoover was directly related to the condition of his relationships and the direction that he felt he had to run. Of course he never admitted to this, but I am confident to this day that my theory was spot-on. For 13-years, if he wanted to return, new numbers were not only part of the hoover with me but also a way to disappear from someone else. Like any good narcissist, he knew exactly how to do it and I’m sure you’ll find that it sounds familiar.
Anywhere from 2-weeks to 3-months after a deafening silence, the hoovering would begin. If my ex intended to return full-on, he’d simply text out-of-the-blue from his new cell number, asking to meet me for a drink (and, sadly, those were the only times he’d ever take me out). If he was just testing the waters and not quite ready for me to have his new number, he’d hoover by giving my phone just a single ring from odd numbers around town belonging to businesses and payphones – numbers that no one in the world except me would ever recognize on a Caller ID. In essence, he’d be counting on me to recall those numbers as the random numbers he used to call me from when we were together and he had no phone at all! And he was right… I always recognized them and felt instant anxiety. Again, nothing a narcissist does is ever random. Everything is a strategy. With my ex, I’m sure that the odd locations from where he’d call me when he had no phone (while we were together) became a way to set the the stage for future hoovering when he didn’t want me to know his new number. And I’m sure that his nonchalant disinterest in taking me out during the good times had much to do with his planning for future hoovers where just a single text (out-of-the-blue) requesting a “date” was all that was needed to grab my attention. Sound far-fetched...or does it sound familiar?
If you remember nothing else from this article, remember this: a narcissist only hoovers and/or returns to ensure that you never move on from the pain he has caused you. No matter what he tells you, this is the only reason. A narcissist’s intention, after all, is to always keep you in the queue, ready and waiting alongside all the others (and there are always others). Hoovers are stuffed with lies and future-fakery and downright bullshit. It’s a sick game of cat and mouse that will steal years from your life if you allow it. At some point we have to simply say “That’s enough” and refuse to be there when the narcissist returns.
No Contact is the key to escaping The Hoovering and the narcissist’s life-long plan for you. It’s also the only opportunity you’ll ever have for breaking the codependency to hope that the narcissist counts on you to cling to while he’s gone. Remember, the narcissist is never worried about what you’re doing while he’s gone or that you’ve found a better love because he’s conditioned you to wait for him…to wait for the hoover.
It’s time to ignore the subtle signs of hoovering and get on with your life. No one has a right to manipulate our emotions and it should never be acceptable to any of us. By enabling the narcissist’s behaviors, we set ourselves up to fail each and every time and we deserve better. Say “no more” and mean it! Remain committed to No Contact and to creating your happiness. I, for one, know you can do it!
Stay strong and I’m here to support you….
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Jeanette
February 27, 2017 at 3:05 pmHi Zari – firstly, I would like to thank you for this website – what a gift!
I’m not sure if this is the correct thread to place this, but here it goes.
Hoovering works both ways – here’s my story – I was romantically involved with an narcissist over ten years ago. I escaped by delivering a letter to his family. As far as I know he never hoovered me, but I blocked him from every angle and also had a romantic partner co-incidentally move in with me at that time. In those ten years he got married and had children. Ten years later he “happened” to drive by my house and caught me working in my yard. Hoovering TEN years later – who would have thought? Curiosity is what got me – did he get the letter (yes he sure did and about a month later we discussed it – I found out he was madder then a wet hen when it happened. Score!) and we started up a sexual relationship again (I’m single – he is not – he’s supposed to be divorcing his wife but that was a year ago – uh huh). The golden period was wonderful – probably better then most because I viewed it as forgiveness and that we were meant to be together through thick and thin, but in the back of my mind, things weren’t right. He told me a month into this awesome sex we were having that he loved me. I basked in the glow of his love, but I was always wary – that niggling feeling would not go away.
This is where it gets good – because of my wariness, I went to counseling, I read everything I could on narcissists and educated myself. I cried myself to sleep knowing that it would eventually end and did my grieving while I was with him. This was easy to do because he’s and empty shell – how can you fall in love with someone who never asks about you, is jealous of you and is using you? There was a point where I didn’t believe he was a narcissist (the golden period) and then the devaluation started. Bingo! And because I still was feeling the love for him but these nagging feelings wouldn’t go away, I started to gather information on him. Some people call that stalking – I call it gathering information for my own personal gain. I never let him know that I knew where he lived (oh yes, he was very very careful in giving me any information – not careful enough – never leave your wallet unattended while you sleep in a hotel room I paid for) and knew his patterns (married people have routines) so spying was very easy. From my careful sleuthing I gleaned all sorts of information – the fact that his wife would take the kids on holidays for three weeks and leave him home by himself, but the story he would tell me was different – that he had the kids all weekend and so on. When he would pull the “oh I’m coming over tonight” and then at 8:00 p.m. (if I was lucky to get a text) “I’m too tired to come over”, I would do a drive-by and find him home alone watching TV (aww – no friends?) So when I got stronger I started to set him up – when he would ignore me, I’d tearfully ask if there was someone else and bang! he’d quit texting for a few days, feign disinterest – anything to feed my fear. So, off I’d go – another drive-by – he’s home watching TV. The time he stopped talking to me because of a lung infection? The snow was shoveled from the sidewalk – he was so sick he couldn’t even send me a text for a week but managed to shovel the walk – what a trooper! I began to use these silences to my advantage – I even travelled to Hawaii for a week and he had no idea because I instigated the silent treatment before he left by telling him I loved him (he loved this because he could say to me, “you’re a stage 5 cling on – you know that?) then I would pretend to be all hurt and I’d have beautiful silence for a week (he would ruin every single thing I was looking forward to by his chaos and jealousy).
My point is is not to be a victim. If he has a habit of hoovering you, take the bull by the horns (even if it’s 10 years later). Firstly seek counseling and once you’re not emotionally bound to the equivalent of what I can only refer to as an emotionally stunted piece of wood, you will begin to think more clearly. YOU know what’s going on – YOU know something isn’t right. In today’s world of technology and social media it’s really not hard to learn the truth – if you want to. I’m not saying to go and destroy any property or take revenge on him in that way, because if you do this you’re breaking the law, and you’re also giving up your most valuable asset – knowledge. Yes, I agree with blocking him at every angle but if you can get out of the emotional torture while you’re with him, you can have some fun! I actually have not blocked my guy – it’s comical to see his texts flash up on my screen, “hey” “umm hello?” “What? are you mad?” “let’s f*ck” “fine no more c*ck for you” and so on. When I feel weak I block him for a while then unblock when I need a laugh. Go ahead – turn the tables. Don’t let fear make you small. All my guy could do was control me with his words. Words mean nothing – action does. Take action. It feels AWSOME!
Zari Ballard
March 4, 2017 at 6:51 pmHi Jeanette,
Everything that you talk about is what we’ve all done here. We’ve all investigated (WE COULD ALL BE PI’S!), done the reverse hoover, set up our own silent treatment (we call it SILENCE APPRECIATION DAY) And, yeah, we all know about mentally breaking free while your still in it – in fact, I wrote a book about it called Stop Spinning, Start Breathing. But when you are really done and want to move on with your life…when you really want to be FREE (I mean, really truly FREE to find your own path without him ever again), cutting off all means of communication is the ONLY way that works. It’s more for you than for him…because by doing all of the above, trying to always beat him at his own game, is still participating in the drama and chaos and, in doing that, we are still on the hook – and that, after all, is really what he wants. Remember that a narcissist doesn’t particularly care whether they are physically with us as long as they are in our head! LOL
Thanks for sharing…I appreciate you!
Zari xo
Dee
February 20, 2017 at 9:00 amMy narc ex boyfriend is currently trying to get me back. He tells me he feels different about me then the others he’s been with. This was following him texting me a few days earlier telling me what a horrible person I am. Why do I still want to believe him? am I crazy?
Zari Ballard
February 24, 2017 at 5:30 pmHi Dee,
We want to believe because we are invested in time, love, or money or all three. But the truth is right here in all these thousands of stories on this website and in the words of my articles and my books. It just doesn’t change, girl. He is lying to serve his own purpose and don’t you believe a word of it.
Stay strong,
Zari xo
Gina
February 19, 2017 at 9:46 pmHow do you get over the urge to seek revenge? Mine has done his final discard. It was the worst ever after over two years of the constant cycle. I get so angry when I start thinking about what he did and what I allowed him to continue doing. I’ve read so much. I know the best thing to do is just ignore him completely and move forward. But I get so angry and can’t seem to let it go. I started remembering every horrible thing and somehow it was always me begging him to come back. I feel so stupid. It has been almost three weeks since he tore me to shreds with his final words, ignored everything I said in return, and moved on and pretended I never existed (exactly what he told me he was going to do). How do I let it go?
Zari Ballard
February 24, 2017 at 4:06 pmHi Gina,
I would say that your revenge is just the fact that you are alive and well and still moving along in life. There isn’t any revenge that you could subject him to that would ever mean anything. Please read my book When Love Is a Lie because it is my story and I explain all that…how I let go, how I wanted revenge, and how I got past it. Also, be sure to read through all the articles on this site as well as all the stories in the comment sections. There are literally thousands of stories here and you will find comfort in them, I promise. It’s time to let go and accept that he is who he is and that will never change and there’s nothing you could ever do about it (revenge) that would matter to him. He is doomed to his evil life forever and all the women he targets will get the same result as you.
Be happy!
Zari xo
Stephanie
February 18, 2017 at 4:46 pmIf you post my recent comment will you please not show my last name.. I didn’t realize when I used my g-mail account it added my first and last name when it sent. I don’t want my ex nowing I am trying to get help.
Zari Ballard
February 19, 2017 at 1:31 pmConsider it done! Last name removed and your comments will be posted very soon as I respond to them…xo
Stephanie
February 18, 2017 at 4:23 pmDear Zari,
I need your help please. I don’t know if my ex was an Narcissist or not. Some of what he did sounds like it. We dated for 2 yrs and in the 2 years I endured so much. I now suffer from not being able to sleep, not eating well, and I have deleted my social media accounts. When we first started dating he would tell me stories about his ex wife. How he had to make her leave because she got hooked on drugs, and how they got in an argument one night because he came home drunk one night and woke up with a women’s skirt on. I fed in on his stories about how he was treated and felt so sorry for him. For the first 6 months I was in cloud 9 and thought he was eveeything that I wanted. Then out of the blue one night he started calling me names until the point I started crying. I didn’t know what to do so I just sat in his bathroom crying. I eventually left that night. I was going to leave him a lone for good and then he called me crying saying how much he loved me and I was everything he ever wanted that he was so sorry. So I eneded up staying with him. Things would go food for about a month or two and we wouod run into someone that new his ex and later on that night he would call me names, the he would start showing me pictures of other women saying that he could have that person if he wanted them, and call me more names. This time both of our kids was there. I tried to go in another room and he would find me and keeo going. I was supposed to watch his kid the next day so I went in his son’s room and told him that I was sorry I was going to have to leave and take my son. When he found me in his kids room he flipped and told me to leave. I didn’t have my car with me, so my son and I started to walk and I called a friend. While we was walking my ex ran after me telling me how sorry he was and to please come back. He loved me and he didn’t want to loose me. I told him to leave me alone and kept walking. The next day I had a text from him wanting to know why I left, and telling me thanks for leaving him stuck to where he had to call in. I texted him and told him he knew why I left and he swore he didn’t know that he was drunk and didn’t remember anything. I tried to ignore his text, so he had his mom call me. She was telling me how much he loved me and how he was so sorry. That he would go get help, blah blah blah. I believed her and went back to him. I love him so much and wanted to believe that he would get help. Things seemed great for a while, but off. I noticed he was texting more on his phone and when I asked him who it was he said an old friend. It was a girl ! He swore it was nothing, but after our past arguments it was kinda hard for me to believe. So when he wasn’t looking I did go through his phone. There was a couple of girls. One of them was showing a pic of her in her bathing suit. I was upset, but said nothing until he started in on me one night calling me names again, putting me down, and throwing a women up in my face saying she was hott and he didn’t know why he was with an old B*!ch like me. I left when he started to do that. And the next day he came to my house got on his knees and startes crying saying that he was sorry and he would do anything to make it up. Of course I gave in because I love him. This went on a couple more times. It got to where I was starting to be depressed and not wanting to go anywhere. I checked his phone again and he had 3 other womem he was talking to. This time he was sending them pics of his body and talking bad about me. It broke my heart!! My friends where telling me to leave him, but for some reason I just couldn’t. Until the last time he called me names I told him I was done. I left for 2 weeks and for some reason I felt so lost with out him. So I called him and told him I missed him. He said why should I believe you, you left me like 4 times. Like everything was my fault on the times that I left. He would call me sneaky and conniving, and say he didn’t want to be with someone like me. I would cry and go a couple of days without talking to him and then he would text me. I would get happy it was like I had forgotten about what he had done in the past. Then out of the blue he would tell me to loose his number and he was with someone new. That she was a perfect 10, she buys him things, and that he really thinks that she is the one. This had broken my heart. I felt like I was going crazy. I went a few days and he would text me again and ask how I was doing. I would text him back saying ok and how I wanted him back and I was sorry that I kept walking away from him. He just would say how can I trust that. And then say he missed me and the great times. Then out of the blue again you know I am with someone leave me alone. I told you she was the one. I went to feeling confused to feel more crazier and like something was wrong with me. So I stooped so low and texted him from a number that he didn’t know acting like someone else. When he didn’t respond I texted his son acting like my son to see if he actually had someone else. His son said he did. And then my ex ended up texting me saying how crazy I was and to never text him again that he was done and he and his new girl was moving in together that she is the one. They had only been together for a month. But I have no idea if she is ine of the girls that he was talking to while he was with me. So far he has left me alone since that day he told me he was moving together, but he does make sure that I hear how happy he is with this new girl. It tears me up. Since I have deleted my social media there is know way for him to rub anything in my face. And I am starting to feel a little better, but I am so scared that if this girl doesn’t work out that he will try to contact me again. I just want to feel like me again and don’t know how, because I still find myself crying and thinking about him. Some days it will even feel like he is here cussing me and calling me names and putting me down again. So I would start to cry again. Please help!! Was he a Narcissist and if so how can I move on? And if he does come back how do I deal with it?
Zari Ballard
February 19, 2017 at 4:16 pmHi Stephanie,
Let me ask YOU a question, girlfriend…what is there about this creep that would lead you to believe for even a split second that he ISN’T a narcissist?? I would go a step further and say that he borders on sociopathic! Now that he is gone, you MUST move on. Thank God it was only two short years…learn from my mistakes and do NOT do what I did, hanging on for NOTHING and wasting what could have been the best years of my life. Do not put yourself through it. Do not put your son through it. Block this jerk’s phone number…call your cell carrier so that he can not even leave a message. Do not allow your son to continue a relationship with his son…it’s just not worth it and your son will get over it.
Read every article on this website (there are over 80 of them) and my book When Love Is a Lie if you can. If you’d like to talk about it, I do offer phone support and am always happy to help. Other than that, I would say that reading and re-reading the very post that you wrote to me above is all the boost that you need to kick this memory to the curb. A sociopathic narcissist cheater and emotional abuser has no place in your life. And I wouldn’t let that slip in the beginning of how he awoke with a woman’s skirt on fly by either. He told you that to see if he could get away with it and he did. After that, to him, the rest was easy. I have no doubt he’s not only a narcissistic sociopath but a sexually deviant one as well. Run and do not look back. This guy is the worst of the worst and you and your son deserve a happy, peaceful life. YOU did nothing wrong.
Stays strong,
Zari xo
Maria
February 15, 2017 at 7:26 amHi what does it mean when my Narccisst never hooverd or tried to contact? We broke up 3 years ago?
Zari Ballard
February 17, 2017 at 10:52 pmHi Maria,
I don’t know why he hasn’t tried to contact you but THIS IS A GOOD THING. The majority of narcs do try to return at some point but there is no way of knowing when they will do it. We have to assume that they won’t and make it an impossibility by blocking, etc. Again, his not contacting you is a very good thing.
Zari xo
Ashley
February 14, 2017 at 4:39 pmHi Zari, i hope you can provide a answer,I posted this on several blog no one wanted to answer it. But mine Narcisst broke up with me here years ago and he never ever hovered neither did I. How come he never tried since they always do? Not that i want him too l I just wonder . Thanks in advance
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Zari Ballard
February 17, 2017 at 10:36 pmHi Ashley,
I don’t know the whole story, girl, and you’d have to fill me in. Maybe he was just an asshole and not even a narcissist. Not every asshole cheater is a narcissist. He could have just been a jerk and the relationship just didn’t work out. Not every story follows the pattern exactly. To me, the fact that you think he’s a narc means that he’s nothing nice. I would stop wondering about why he hasn’t contacted you and just count your blessings!!
Zari xo
Ashley
February 23, 2017 at 8:03 amHi Zari, thanks for you reply. Well he is deff a NARC>. Ticks all the boxes. He love bombed me from day on then belittle me and then he discarded me out of the blue. He boutgh me gifts from day one and went into counselling for anger issues. But then he criticize my clothing my personality etc. this all in 9 months time frame. But if they dont hoover it means t a compliment?